Chai and I continue to visit the dog park a couple of times a week, where Chai gets a little bit of exercise. She has started to get quite demanding with the toys there. Throwing the ball once or twice is not enough - she will bark and bark until I throw it again. One of the other dog parkers is a woman in a wheelchair, without use of her legs, and she says that Chai is bored and is barking for exercise. She really relates to Chai, and I learn from both of them.Just decided that I can't follow up on the opportunity for a free place to stay on Kuaui. The stress of me being gone for a week or two could actually make Chai's DM worse. You know, after becoming an EMT so that I could go out on fires in that role, I prayed hard for balance- between my need for money and adventure, and Chai's need for my care. Perhaps her needs have won out and that's why I haven't been out as an EMT in the last 2 summers...hmmm, food for thought.
I know my time for adventuring will come again, and too soon, if you know what I mean. This is my time for taking care of my fur child, to the very end.
When we commit to someone, be they human, fur, or feather, we often have to put adventure on hold Adventure's voice is very persuasive and it's hard to not give in when she beckons with hints of wonder and magic and the unknown. But in the end, honoring the commitment we've made, turns giving into receiving and it's okay to not succumb to the call of Adventure.
ReplyDeleteThat said, times do come along when the caregiver must take time for herself. That's when friends and other resources suddenly appear to help out. Stay open to those gifts.
Meanwhile, Autumn is a fantastic time to be in Silver City. So for now, just hang out with Ms. Chai and have a great time. Love to you both, Jeannie